19th July 2011

Nas , im sorry for all the things that happen .. i know u want the best for myself .. but by letting me go , even as a fren , it do hurt .. i cried upon reading ur text .. U told me shahrin deserve me as mostly even when im with u , i keep thinking about him .. The fact is , its true i still do love him , but still i want our friendship to stay as it is .. After my breakups , u are the one who text and call me almost everyday to cheer me up .. U are a good friend . But i dont know that u will be jealous about me and him .. Im so SORRY .. I still do treasure our friendship .. i know u will be reading this .. I hope we are still friends ..

Most of my frens told me dat i deserve better man .. Some even told me to think twice before patching up .. we have not patch up .. its just dat we are seeing each other .. coz it will take me some time for me to heal the pain i have to go through .. i know u are trying ur best to win me back .. but somehow i just dont feel it is the rite time .. but i jus wish for the best ..

and lastly thanks babygirls and guys for making my nite a memorable one .. I didnt expect it at all .. thanks so much .. had a great nite with u guys .. thank you so much .. u guys make my day .. i LOVE u guys ..

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7:27 PM

Thanks For The Time Given

i know u give me some time to think .. u mention dat im in difficult situation .. yes true .. coz once bitten twice shy .. all i need is more time .. let time heals everything .. but u should know by now , i still love and care for u .. aniway im here to wish u happy 9 monthsary .. hope its still counting .. :')

Sat gonna meet my masquarade ladies ! Cat have suprises for us .. :) c u gals soon . :) cant wait ..

9:39 PM

its been a while :)

its few months for now , since u left ..

yesterday gazed at the stars ..

i got my fren to accompany me ..

all the way from boon lay to bedok ..

then he send me home ..

i ask him how much the taxi fare .

he replied $30.30 .. plus midnight charge ..

aiyoh yoh .. he said he dont mind as long as he get to spend quality time with me before im going off to malaysia .. aww .. :)

9:43 PM

Chu i miss

I was shocked when rp called me to say there 's vacany in it service management course .. I keep thinking .. Can i cope in poly life ? I know im not ready for that hence i decided to just go to higher nitec .. This way its much easier in the future for me to go poly .. Now i jus concentrate on higher nitec .. The good thing of going higher nitec , i have an exrtra certificate and experience .. The bad one , waste a year .. But since im a lady , i need not go through ns , so y not .. Ftt mon .. I learn only half part of the book .. Im considering whether should i give him a chance .. I miss him .. I cant eventually hide dat .. U know b , i miss ur hugs .. Ur warm hug .. Makes me feel so secure in ur arms .. The ring ,no matter wat , i will still keep it with me .. I appreciate the thoughts of u bougght me the ring upon receiving urnsecond pay .. I simpan cincin 2 sebab i tahu tu duit titik peloh u .. We do fight most of the time .. Sometimes u said sorry .. But sorry seems the hardest word .. But for now , i jus wanna concentrate on schooling .. Dats it .. I given some
Thoughts to , for which cca i will choose .. Its maybe bowling , student council or arts & crafts .. Today my last day of babysitting matin .. These boy make my day .. His smile cheer me up .. His dimple sweet as he is .. For one month plus he's with me , he never fail to make me smile .. Im gonna miss u mini matin .. Kak illah love u .. Wherever u are , insyallah allah lindungi matin .. For tomorrow , my cousins making plans .. Syimah badly wants to go botanic garden for photo shoot .. While zirah wanna go wild2 wet .. For myself im easy with anything .. So cousins make up ur mind .. C u tomorrow :) shahrin & matin , i miss both of u ..

9:40 AM

:) :)

Im gonna perm my hair by end of march or early april .. My hair is long now .. Too long i can say ..but it will be dissapointing if i have to chop off .. Class chalet tomorrow .. I dont think im going as im taking care of matin .. And his mum will only fetch him after 10 .. Sat im meeting baby .. :) :) :) i miss him .. This sat since baby pay day .. We gonna plan something else instead of eating repeated times at restaurant ..as for rings , since baby lost his ring , we going to buy another set .. For the old one , i still keep mine .. Take very good care of it .. I love u b .. Muacks ..

5:57 PM

.......

Im having flu .. Still havent recover fully yet .. Mama papa going johor tomorrow .. So left me and matin at hm .. My ftt less than a month to go .. Hoprefully i can pass and can straight go through pratical test .. I received a letter from cdc .. At first , i dont expect that u will be getting any award or voucher .. I thought my dad was kidding .. But it turn out to be true .. I received a good progress award .. It statednonly 10 % of higher nitec and nitec get the award .. I browse through ite website .. Each reward 400 .. I dont mind if its a voucher or cash as long as i get good grades .. I miss shahrin .. Baby , i know someday u will be reading this .. No matter wat the obstacles are , im here giving u my very best .. Somehow i miss ur hugs .. :( the way u kiss my forehead .. Due to se probs , we didnt get
To wish each other .. Our monthsary . I know its quite late .. Aniway happy 5th monthsary syg .. May we grow old together
.. I love u .. Only u .. :) miss u ..

8:54 AM

i miss matin

I realised im too short .. :(

we fight on our back home .. i saw baby cry ..

when i saw him in that situation i cried too ..

we go our separate way .

just before i reached my void deck , i saw him coming back ..

we settled things ...

and i miss matin .. :(

so now im going out with lil cousin syimah and zirah ..

we going to buy baby matin things .. :)

yesterday i saw baby clothes , so cute !!

so today im going to buy his socks , shirts , and pacifier !!

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